the adventures of miri amee

Menye menye menye

2010-08-05T12:30:00.001-07:00

Gue sebel kalo lagi menye-menye. Di kepala kebayang mulu mukanya. Sebelum tidur berdoa buat orangtua dan orang itu mulu. Bangun-bangun kesel sendiri karena kebayang muka orang itu duluan sebelum ngeliat jam. Sampe akhirnya curhat di blog karena bingung mo cerita ke siapa!

Diceritain ke temen-temen, pasti bakal di-cengin. Diceritain ke kakak, bingung jelasinnya gimana. Yang ada dipendem-pendem, gak ada progress.

Yang pasti gue ngaca tiap hari dan nyadar, mana mungkin orang itu ngelirik gue sesaat pun! Tidak mungkin! Tidaaaakk! *lebay*

Udah pendek, mbulet, sipit, kadang lemot, kelakuan kayak kucing garong, suka ngatur, galak, et dah, apaaa apaaa yang mo dilirik dari gue? Apaaaaa? *mellow*

Kebiasaan gue kalo suka sama orang, diem-diem, tapi muka kayak billboard. Kalo diajak ngomong, mata pasti berbinar-binar ala anime pake background kembang-kembang dan cahaya-cahaya.

Yang suka ngebetein itu orang-orang yang gue suka pasti gak masuk profile "cowok idaman" bahkan seringnya melenceng. Dan yang keliatan sama gue itu justru kekurangan-kekurangan, yang pada akhirnya gue syukurin, karena ngerasa orang itu masih manusia. Kejam ya gue? Suka sama orang karena kekurangannya.

Yang paling ngeselin itu bingung nyari solusi gimana cara nyalurin ke-menye-menye-an yang pada akhirnya numpuk dan nyari jalan keluar.

Daripada menjadi public outburst yang memalukan dan pasti bakal disesalkan seumur hidup, gue sering lari ke musik dan tulisan.

Bahkan dengerin lagu yang mellow dikit, pasti langsung ngayal-ngayal merenung ala dangdut yang..... aarrghhh! Kalo dibayangin dan ditunjukkin pasti bakal jadi bahan ceng-an seumur hidup.

Norak.

Super-duper norak.

Akhirnya gue bikin puisi.

Ultimate norak.

Anyways, here goes nothing. Anggep aja ini karya, yoi gak? Dan moga-moga bisa membuat gue sedikit ikhlas dengan keadaan, kalo sekali lagi tangan terulur ini gak akan dibales.

Here goes nothing, deh.

Penyusup Relung Hati

Kamu terlahir dari sepucuk bayangan

Yang tertanam di sudut sanubari terdalam

Pelan-pelan tanpa kusadari

Kau memasuki dan menghantui

Setiap tikungan jalan yang kulalui

Ada sisi yang mengaktifkan memori

Masa-masa indah yang telat kusadari

Yang selalu kamu hadiri

Kamu tumbuh dan mengisi ruangan

Hingga rongga dadaku kesesakan

Semakin sulit semakin penuh

Semakin

Semakin.

Tapi aku hanya bisa memendam

Selama tatapan mataku akan selalu menjauh

Selama kepalaku akan merunduk malu

Karena kamu adalah cinta rahasiaku.

Cyberjaya, 6 Agustus 2010

Norak pol.

Udah ah, sekali-kali boleh galau, iya gak?

ciao.

PS:

Click here untuk pengalaman pembacaan puisi ter-menye-menye

WDYLM? Video Clip!

2010-07-09T13:21:00.000-07:00

Hola!

Alritey fellas, lately I've been juiced up by creativity, so I've finally made a recording of WDYLM - which stands for Why Don't You Love Me, fyi. I even made a homemade crappy video clip of it!!

It took me two hours to write the song, another two to record and mix it, plus half an hour to make the cheesy video clip. Did all the props, guitar, even finger-snapping by myself. But I'm darn satisfied.

This might be the most positive song I've ever made to date!

Anyways, the lyrics I've posted in the blog post before this one, but for the recording, I suddenly had an idea to add in a rap. Hahahahaha!

I think its passable for a song, what do you think?

Anyways, here are the rap lyrics, and underneath it is the crappy video clip which was so much fun to make!

WDYLM?

Rap by Miri Amee

To all my ladies all around the world

If you like a guy you better show him what you're worth

Playin' hard to get, you better be a hot bait

Careful now be cautious you don't want no heartache

Women these days are independent as can be

But I still wanna be, wanna be your Queen bee

So look me in the eyes, you ain't gonna see no lies

My heart is on my sleeves I'm so ready to get high

I got the looks and the body, the brains and the smile

But I ain't got no man standing by my side

I'm all about the teasing and not about the pleasing

Boy you better make your move

Or I'm gonna be leaving

Gonna be leaving

I think I'm leaving

Yeah, this boy is wack

C'mon girl

PS. Yep, I know this song may portray me as some conceited hobbit-sized biatch who thinks all men should like me. But that is not the case at all. Nope.

I KNOW for a fact that I never get the guy, thus my solitary status remains. But I'm not a settler. I just think girls shouldn't have to sell themselves so cheap just to get a guy.

Nu-uh, ladies, go after your EQUAL in a man. If he is as good as you, or as bad as you, you should know what you are to know what you deserve.

Ciao

lalala, singing in the morn

2010-07-05T14:28:00.000-07:00

Yellow folks!

So, I'm on insomnia-mode. I can't sleep, I can't think about what to do, or the classes I got later this morning. I'm so energized, I figured I should record my latest song. But then, there was something wrong with the mic. Then I wanted to make a video thingy with windows movie maker. Then there was something wrong with my video card, or something.

Alas, my last hope was my webcam, so I plugged it in, and recorded a snippet of my latest song. It's crappy as usual, but it has a hidden-yet-obvious message!

Don't believe me? Check it out, and read the lyrics to it!

WDYLM?

Song and Lyrics by Miri Amee

(Rap)

Uhuh, to all my ladies, yo

This one is for you

If you like a boy

But he don't make his move

You gotta right to get his attention, his attention

1st verse:

Kuingin bertanya, wanita seperti apa

Yang kau ingini, kubisa jadi dia

Aku mandiri dan juga percaya diri

Kubisa membuatmu tersenyum dan tertawa

Bridge:

Oh, apalagi yang kau tunggu

Ku t'lah berikan tanda untuk mendekat padaku

Jangan kau terlambat dan menyesal

Here's what I gotta say, to make you come my way

Chorus:

I can make you the luckiest man ever loved by a woman

Ever loved by a woman like me

I can give the world on a silver platter

Nothing else would even matter

Your nights will be much better

So Why Don't You Love Me?

2nd verse:

Mungkin kau tak tau, aku yang selalu

Ada nyata mendukung mimpi-mimpi gilamu

Kutahu kekuranganmu, dan juga lemahmu

Tanpa mengurangi nilaimu di mataku

(Video has been removed because there is a better one in the next post! xD)

Birth Anniversary

2010-06-28T11:11:00.000-07:00

Play this video while reading

Soundtrack: Dewi Lestari - Selamat Ulang Tahun

Its 2.09, and its two hours way past my birthday. It was the kind of birthday that I liked. Not much fuss, just wishes going around. Yep, I'm not the type who appreciates getting pranked at my birthday, I'm the type who likes to be surrounded by my friends and people who love me on this day. I don't even mind if i don't get presents.

I think birthdays are actually sad, because birthdays are like giant countdowns towards death. And the picture of being surrounded by your friends during your birthday isn't any different with the situation during your funeral, only then, you'd be surrounded by sad faces, instead of the happy ones you get to see.

This year I'm turning 22, and I Look back to how I was when I was 21. I compare myself. My friend Muhammad Budi said, "I hope you're not getting older, I hope you're getting better." Or something like that.

And those words ring the utmost truth.

Birthdays are days created not as a reason to party, but to reflect. Now I'm alone in my room, I realized that I have lived more than two decades in this world without leaving any trace of significance. By 22, Gandhi has 3 kids, Mozart had 30 symphonies, and my mom got married.

Now I'm 22. What are my achievements? I still get allowance from my parents, I have not saved anybody's life, and what do I leave behind if I die this very instance?

I am a fragment of insignificance in a universe so vast that i become smaller than bacteria, or even smaller than mycoplasma genitalium, the smallest organism capable of independent growth (found in primate's genitals, but thats not the point).

And these are the things I should be thinking of on this day, but no. Instead, I think about a single birthday wish I've been waiting for the whole day, since I realized that today was my birthday. The birthday wish that would certainly make today a special one, coz he would be speaking to me, or better yet, realize my existence.

Now the hour has passed, and the time-frame has expired for this birthday wish to be special. And I'm back to feeling like that mycoplasma genitalium, too small to look at, too small to notice. And who is to blame, but me who can only love in silence, with lips sealed, and stone-cold expressions when ever that person is in a 100m radius, acting like I don't give a damn.

Oh well, maybe my luck will change on my 23rd birthday? We'll see.

Till next year.

Ciao

PS: Thanks for the wishes.

Comment, rate, and vote!

2010-03-03T12:20:00.000-08:00

hang in there

2009-12-24T23:04:00.001-08:00

Hello world, hows it going?

Plenty of stuff happened lately, too much to tell, i dunno what to start, but i guess i'll just start by saying, I'M ALIVE COZ I SURVIVED FINAL EXAMS! MBUAHAHAHAH!

That's all for now.

ciao

telepon kejutan di malam hari

2009-11-19T10:02:00.000-08:00

Apa jadinya kalau seorang DJ di Pakistan tiba2 nelpon lewat ym?

Tadi gue barusan dikejutkan oleh online-call call dari seorang DJ kondang yang sekarang sedang berdomisili di Pakistan. Setelah berkutat dengan headphone dan microphone, akhirnya gue menerima online-call tersebut.

Mengira ada hal penting yang harus disampaikan, gue langsung pasang kuping untuk mendengar baik2 apa yang ingin disampaikan di DJ kondang ini.

Apakah itu?

Dya berkata, "Cuman mau bilang aja, aku lagi makan bakso!"

KLIK!

Udah, gitu aja.

Reaksi gue: *krik krik krik krik* BAHAHAHAHAH!

Lalu siapakah DJ kondang ini?

Tak lain dan tak bukan, DJ kesayangan kami semua, Pakde!

ciao

tardiness in the making

2009-11-18T12:08:00.000-08:00

I knew that restarting my blog would mean that i can express myself again, and write, and blablabla. But one thing is for sure: I WILL SLEEP LATE AGAIN!

I have no idea why, but my writing inspirations starts to be fluid once its past my bedtime. Maybe some circuits in my head goes haywire and thus the creative side of me thrives.

Well, almost done with my blog design, how do you like it?? Any comments, anyone?? All i need to do now is add people on my blogroll, which stupidly, i forgot to save their URL's. darn it. Thank God for Google.

Its 4.11 a.m when i wrote this, and i have a report due that is unfinished [not even started, actually, forgive me dear groupmates!], loads of tutorial and studying to do.

Huff.

And i was planning to start a show on my youtube channel, which is inactive actually, but i would like to start a series of VLOGs with the title, "Adventures of the Accounting Student".

Waddaya think about that??

Anyways, gotta get going with my report, sleep, and other human things to do.

ciao

2009-11-17T11:44:00.000-08:00

Look, i know i'm guilty of not updating for months and months now, but i'm changing a few things now. I'm gonna update more, i promise. As you can see, i've changed the look of my blog. I'm older now,so i guess i'm more mellower and stuff.

I'm gonna take new pictures for this blog, and i hav tons of materials ready in my head.

as for now, i just wanna let ya'll know... i'm still alive xD

ciao

Lets make our life colorful!

2009-05-25T04:49:00.000-07:00

Great news:

I have re-formatted my PC!

I have one more finals left!

I'm going home!

Hurrah!

I know I shud be studying rite now, but I was home alone and i kept on complaining about my laundry, my bills, my piling dishes until...

I realized I didn't have to complain! Because after tomorrow, I will be free!

So I made a little video about this revelation and a song with it!

Its crappy as always, but it was made to make a few smiles... [and made in under 3 hours] maybe, hahaaha. if its good enuf to make smiles I mean xD.

Have a wonderful day, as always.

Paint Our Life

Today is a Monday

Go back to my old ways

Wake up in the evening

Go to the kitchen and eat leftovers of dinner from yesterday

I cannot live this way

The bills are unpaid

My laundry's pilling to the rim

The dishes in the sink

Darlin' its starting to stink

I think

My patience's hanging on the brink

We both know that life is too short

Its too wonderful to miss it in a blink of an eye

So why do we waste our time?

Coz life is a mix of everything

No matter the tragedy

We should keep on moving

With you by my side

I know I'll be fine

So please take my hand and lets paint our life

So please take my hand, lets paint our life.

R.I.P Blecka

2009-04-15T14:38:00.000-07:00

I don't know what sort of vibe I give off, but somehow I always manage to repel technology.

My PC suddenly went AWOL on me and is acting weird. Time to re-format, but I have no idea what happened to it! Oh, Blecka, why do you have to die on such an inconvenient time?

My laptop is old, slow and ancient. But at least he is faithful! But, oh no~ My printer can't be detected by my laptop, so I can't print my online notes for tomorrow's tax class! NOOOO!!

My handphone's MP3 ability has died too, I have no idea how that happened. And... what else?

I repel technology!

Gaaaaaahh!

Please, please somebody save my electronics for me. Pleeeaaassee! Huhuhuhu.

Blecka, I miss you.

miri on hiatus

2009-04-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

Guys! Hello! How are ya?

Just to let you guys know, I'm going into hiatus on this blog for a while.
No particular reason, just having loads of negative thoughts in my mind that I cannot simply channel through this blog.

But in case you're wondering what is up with me, ya'll can check my other blog containing my rants, complaints and whines,

KREASENSITIF.

Its an unedited blog, containing all those blaah thoughts in my head, written without much thought like a verbal diarrhea.

Ciao people, and have a awesome day, as always.

i didn't want to leave paradise

2009-04-01T19:19:00.001-07:00

Ever had a nasty wake up call?

I've been stumbling around my days, keeping it busy, always on my toes, half still wishing i had sand underneath my soles, and the busy, bustling atmosphere of phi-phi Island.

How can you fall in love with a place?

Daydreams of becoming a beach-girl started to fill up my mind. I can learn to fish and how to scuba dive. I can help my parents sell fish and make bracelets from sea shells. I can be a travel guide who can speak waay better English that those guides over there. I can be a fire-thrower chick! All these wonderful things......

Assignments.
Midterms.
Meetings.
Housework.

All caught up.

Last night I became so angry with my self, to the point that I am furious! Grrrr! Get a grip Amee!

I failed in one thing once, now I've failed again. TWICE! Failing twice, SUCKS!

So now I'm awake. No more skipping classes and procrastinating.

So long, goodbye paradise, I have to leave you.

Hello real life!

i present to you, fuukk-it!

2009-03-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

Guys, im leaving to Phuket!

So this is something for all of you guys. I wrote a song in record time! And this is the 1st attempt of recording so, hehe, i know my voice cracked and my chords slipped a bit, but hey? I'm going to Phuket!

Story Behind It

All the various events that is happening around Cyberia these days, including a pervert who is groping people in the A1 or C1 block elevators - ladies, beware - and also a recent event in which i got hit by a womanizer - screw you! - and of course, about my excitement of going to phuket! Whoo hoo!

I didn't have time to upload it at mixPod, so go to this link to check out the song!

Fuukk-it! [Phuket]

If you had a bad day and things are getting worse, well just Phuket!

If the womanizer's hitting on ya then changes his mind, well just Phuket!

If your work is overload, you don't know what to do, well just Phuket!

If these pervert's groping you in the C1 elevator well just... kick him in the balls.

Chorus:
Coz...
Midterm break is on the horizon now
There's nothing to bring you down
And you'll know I'll be happy
Coz I'll be in Phuket, Thailand...

I'll be in Phuket, Thailand...

Okay guys, I hope you liked it! And comment yeah?? Yeaahh?? Whoohoo!

Special Thanks to:

Indocoustic for changing my strings
Abi Rakan for lending me his mic, hehee
All the lovely ears who heard my rants and complaints about a certain butt-hole last nite
God! For giving me a sign to steer away from that certain guy, thank You!
You guys, for commenting =D

brief

2009-03-20T13:26:00.000-07:00

This will be a very brief post.

*ehem*

MEN SUCK!

That's all.

Cheers guys! And happy holidays for all MMU buddies!

i just wanna sing

2009-03-18T20:47:00.000-07:00

Lalalalala!

I feel like this

And this

And this

And this

But mostly I feel like jumping high becoz life is wonderful!

Channel [V]'s Battle of the Pop!

2009-03-18T13:24:00.000-07:00

Calling all Indonesians and Nidji fans!

Come and join channel [V]'s Battle of the Pop and vote for your favorite artists! I chose Nidji, coz I've been a fan since they came out - one of the original CD's that I bought, and I only buy a few ya'll.

Its a Battle between Asia and America folks!

So lets help Nidji rise up and conquer this battle by logging in to this link. Register as a member, then cast your vote.

Nidji is now up against One Republic - !!!! - and has 70 more votes than them. C'mon guys, lets support Nidji, yeah!!

Although my judgement was a bit clouded when I saw my dream hubby, Mr. AZ, on the list too, but I managed to click vote for Nidji.

Okay, I guess I'm a bit biased, but heeeyyy, Indonesia ROCKS!!

This is the video that is featured in the battle. I don't really like the video. I think its corny and the visual effects are just... I dunno. I like Agnes Monica's videos better. But hey, I guess they're on a budget. But love the song tho!

arrgh!

2009-03-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

Must. Study.

Agenda for Wednesday:

1 Auditing Midterm in the morning
1 Marketing Midterm in the evening
Ironing
Prepare for Phuket trip
Loads of other things I must settle before the midterm break

It's 5pm and still no progress in studying. Stuck in facebook commenting on pictures from ISS Nite.

Must. Study.

Must.

Urgh.

i got mine

2009-03-16T12:47:00.000-07:00

Karma is a very powerful thing...

Always be careful of what you say.

Coz it might backfire.

fuuuuu-ket!

2009-03-15T12:26:00.000-07:00

Countries I've stayed in and/or visited:

Indonesia [obviously, I was born there]
NY, USA [stayed, 3.5 years]
London, UK [stayed, 3.5 years]
France
Belgium
Netherlands
Brussels
Singapore
Tokyo, Japan [stayed, 4 years]
Malaysia [staying, from 2006 till now]

And soon to be added in the list:
PHUKET, THAILAND!

Whoohoo!

My dream of traveling around the world is in the making!

the first time in a long time

2009-03-15T10:47:00.000-07:00

I watch these guys dancing, laughing, smiling... in pairs. A number that describes them as lovers. In the middle of a house filled with couples, I am there, minus a better half of me that I haven't met yet.

My mind wanders.

PMS is making me mellow. Boy, do I know how hard it is for me to fall. And then its taking me more than a year to get over it all. God made my heart small, but it can fit a million feelings with constant feedback and echo. Remembering how it feels, although I can't remember a face, or the sound of a voice. Just the feeling, but I remember it well. Gosh, it feels like a million years ago.

Love is overrated, but I have over-rated it. And its making me set my standards high, so I guess I'm not that easy to get by.

Which makes me unapproachable. I guess. Does it? People may know me, but they don't know whats going on inside my heart. Do you?Or are you just making wild guesses that aren't even close?

Where is that place I'm missing? I'm so comfortable where I am now, I'm afraid I don't want it to change. Where is that place I'm missing? Somewhere I want to call home. Somewhere I haven't been in a long time.

And then I'm charmed. Tall, dark, but not so handsome. From afar. Then nearby. As you open your mouth to speak, I begin to smile.

What an ordinary voice, but I seem to remember it well.

Infatuation? Hmm, maybe. Most probably.

A chat, an exchange of smile, a laugh, a secret. It was nothing, until I had a dream about it.

And then I can't stop thinking about it.

I skipped a heartbeat. I'm choking as I breathe.

I can feel it. A new story is about to begin.

And then I start to daydream about it...

...wait, I don't even know your name.

I snap back to reality, then looked at the couples surrounding me.

I guess for now, I'll just dance and laugh and smile along with them.

regarding no smoking day

2009-03-11T02:18:00.000-07:00

Did you guys know that last Monday it was "No Smoking Day"? That's why MMU made it a public holiday, coz MMU doesn't support smokers! No, I'm kidding, last Monday was a holiday because it was Maulid Nabi, had nothing to do with No Smoking Day.

But smoking has been an issue for so many years. Many people start to realize the disadvantages of smoking, while the younger generation are getting more exposed to it.

The smokers say that smoking is good for monitoring your health, coz if the doctor forbids you to smoke, that means you're not healthy, but if you're huffing and puffing away, it means you're fit as a horse. Hehehe, lame excuse.

The non-smokers say that they are victims of secondhand smoking - and its true! - and they are trying to get all these smokers to quit.

But smoking creates a big industry. From the cigarrette factories, to R&D labs who study lung cancer and the cancerous chemicals that are found in cigarrettes, from the people who produces nikotin patches to special toothpaste for smokers, everyone will be affected if smoking was banned!

But even without the smokers, the world is polluted enough, not to metion the contribution of cigarrette butts to the pile of imbiodegradable - is that the right spelling? - trash. The streets are easily littered by those irresponsable smokers who throw away their cigarrette butts ANYWHERE!! Darn those litterers.

So, smoking, there is still a HUGE argument of whether it should be banned or not. But, I hope those non-smokers get to say, "Yo! It's No Smoking Day!" to those smokers on last Monday. What do you guys think about smoking?

And on this topic, I would like to contribute one of my own original songs about smoking, and smokers in particular.

Story Behind It

This song was written not so long ago, on the 19th of September 2008. This was my dark ages, when I was 6 kg lighter than now - I know, I'm FAT now, but I'm happier, hhahahaa - and when I was half-depressed. And playing around with some chords, I remembered how a friend of mine once said that, "My girlfriend is my cigarette. I'm devoted to it, and I'll be faithful to it. And it will always be there when I need it."

Uh, talk about addiction, but what he said ringed in my ear, and then I wrote a song... about devotion to a cigarrette. All those smokers out there, do you feel me???

Oh, and it's in Indonesian, so pardon me to those who don't understand it! Enjoy. Leave your comments!

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Anthem Perokok

Walau telah kucoba, meninggalkan dirimu
Tapi selalu aku, kembali padamu
Ingin kubercerai darimu, tapi kuterberai tanpamu
Bila terpisah ku akan mencari, jalan tuk bersamamu lagi

Chorus:
Perlahan kau membunuhku
Perlahan kau musnahkanku
Tapi kau temani, malam-malam sepi
Berjanji setia walau kau buatku, mati

Rokok putihku

Bersamamu aku menderita
Tapi terpisah aku tersiksa
Kini aku lupa, hidup sebelum kau ada

Pernah setahun ku tanpamu, setiap hari merindukanmu
Kadang kubertahan tanpamu
Seringnya, ku akan s'lalu menginginkan dirimu

Back to Chorus

Well, thats all! I know it's a funny song, but I think those smokers feel me when they listen to this, right folks?

hope

2009-03-09T03:47:00.000-07:00

Dreams are possible if you think of it hard enough!

When you stop dreaming, it stops happening, so dream, keep dreaming, and make that dream into reality. When you believe it can happen, a way to it will be paved from the heavens.

But dream realizations need dedication, commitment and hard work. So don't just dream it, but do something about it.

And most importantly, dream realizations need a lot of money. So,

note to self: Study hard, be a rich accountant, and finance your dreams! Money!!!!!

You are never too old for your dreams.

MY DREAMS:
[as written on my note book at 05.03.09]

Write and finish a novel
Create and record my songs [nicely, not crappy bathroom recordings]
Become a lecturer
Give environmental contribution to the Indonesian community
Go backpacking around the world

I wrote those dreams without actually knowing how to make it come true, but it seems that God is a better planner than I am. He is paving a road, and I have a duty to finish it.

Hope is on the horizon.

Special thanks to my dear friend, Zul Ramadhani. I know nothing is happening yet, I know my hopes are up. But something is created from nothing, and with you around to help me, I have faith, my friend!! Lets do this!

laughter, the best medicine!

2009-03-03T08:26:00.000-08:00

What a day!

I would LOVE to tell you guys about my adventure today, but I'm drowning in my tasks in which the deadline is coming nearer and nearer.

Long story short, I went to class today, then went to KL then got stuck in a stand-still traffic jam, and came home at 9.30. Not so interesting? Wait 'til you hear the details!

Anyway, I'm so tired, but I still need to do a LOT of things, so how do I quickly re-charge??

By watching Moymoy Palaboy!

Marimar!

I love this video!

Always makes me laugh!

Ahahahaa, and Roadfill - the guy with the big hair - is cute and I wud definitely marry a guy like him! Ahahhahhaha.

o happy day

2009-03-01T22:41:00.000-08:00

Quick update!

First, I went to KL on Saturday and bought a new mp3! It's this one!I'm so happy!! Okay, lets give it a name! Hmmm, any ideas guys? I named my guitar Black Jack, nicknamed Jeki, my laptop is Bleki, and my PC is Blecka - so lame! hahahaa. I have names for everything! Is dat weird? Give me your ideas of what I should name my new MP3!

Second, I'm going to meet my lovely duh-ling Mr. A to Z! Ahahahahhaaha, Jason, Jason!!!! *faint*

On Wednesday, 4th March 2009 I'm going to KL to watch Jason Mraz!! Arrrrghhhh!!

So meetings, assignments, work, anything... hueheuheue, sorry ya'll, but this is the rest I've earned! Yee-haa!

I'll catch up with everything after the 4th of March, but on that day, sorry ya'll, I cannot be disturb!

Third, MY SISTER IS COMING, I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!! From the 7th-9th of March my sister will be visiting, so nothing is gonna disturb me!! No rehersals, no work, no studying, just sister-time ya'll!

Okay, now I've got tons of work to do - which I'll be happily doing - so this is just a quick update.

And last of everything... I'M NOT MELLOW OR DEPRESSED ANYMORE! I'M SO HAPPY, THANK YOU GOD! I LOVE YOU!

I'm so blessed, I know it.

Have a fantastic day today, and everyday people!

stoned

2009-02-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

azan maghrib berkumandang, menandakan satu hari yang telah berakhir.
yang berakhir dalam kesia-siaan.
hari ini yang telah kusia-siakan.

dalam rumah berantakan penuh dengan kejenuhan.
aku manja dan malas untuk bergerak.
membiarkan emosi menggerogoti isi hati yang telah rapuh dimakan oleh kesibukan.

segala jenis perjalanan terasa lebih panjang.
yang terdengar hanya ketukan langkah kaki.
dan kesunyian.

kesunyian.
pertanda.
kesendirian.

manja.
betul-betul manja.

malas berjuang, padahal segala kenyamanan berada dalam genggaman.

uang. perlindungan. dukungan.
tapi masih manja dan malas berjuang.

bodoh.
hei, tampar aku agar sadar!

norak dan emosionil.

dari gelap sampai gelap lagi, masih terduduk diatas bantal empuk.
membiarkan tulang dan isi otak keropos.

jengah untuk melakukan perbuatan.

lazuardi berubah menjadi hitam.
dan satu hari telah berakhir, kusia-siakan.

Feeling a little bit emo. because of my missing mp3. life, is too quite without music.

lost.

2009-02-25T09:02:00.000-08:00

February seems like the month for me to lose things.

At the beginning of the month I lost my mountain-goat bag; it was stolen when I put it at the racks in front of the bookstore.

Notice how the bookstore takes off their notices saying, "Strictly no bags allowed"? Well, that is because of me.

Later on I lost the chance to go to Bali really cheaply. I just missed the AirAsia promo by a few hours. And most of my friends who planned to stay here during the semester break is going. So then I totally flipped and changed my mind - I'm not staying here for the semester break! I just bought a ticket home to Jakarta on the 31st of May, so its FINAL.

So I also lost my chances of staying in Cyberjaya during break - although no-one really recommends it to me.

Then, today, I lost one of the people who I call my bestfriend. Yeah, maybe he doesn't feel the same, maybe I'm just another friend who doesn't really matter much. But he is important to me, and I care about him too much that it seems weird to imagine a life without him.

One of the few Indonesian's who are taking accounting in MMU bailed out - again. I already lost one friend, now I'm losing another?

I know I'm being a drama queen and making too much of a fuss about this. I mean, he's only changing major and still be in MMU.

But to imagine not having the same classes, not having someone there to laugh about the lecturer or sharing comments of that weird kid who's sitting on the other row. Imagining not going to lunch together after class and sharing the latest gossip. Imagining not having someone who I trust with my secrets here beside me.

Imagining going through the hellhole of "accounting" alone.

Alone.

One thing from being different... is being set apart from anything else.

The majority of Indonesian FOM students are taking Finance with Multimedia. They have the experience of sharing classes together, eating lunch together, doing assignments together.

I wont have that memory. The chances of having that memory is gone now.

I called my sister and bawled my eyes off until my credit is finished. But she managed to say a few words that ringed in my ear.

She said, "C'mon Amee, cheer up. You're used to leaving and being left by now."

Yes, its true. As a constant traveller who never stays in one place for more than 4 years, I'm used to being left and leaving things behind.

I try not to get attached.

But you never get used to the feeling of emptiness it leaves behind.

Never. No matter how many times, losing something is probably the most terrible feeling that ever touched my heart.

Like a papercut, though small, it stings like hell.

And to top it all, I also lost my MP3 player today. Noooooooo! What am I without my MP3??

February, you are the month of losses.

Indonesia Sore @ RMMU

2009-02-22T21:59:00.000-08:00

For my buddies anywhere, everywhere, come and listen to me and my evil twin Evl in RMMU on the show, Indonesia Sore.

Yep, in this show you guys can check out whats goin' on in the Indonesian music industry, you can request any Indonesian song you like and dedicate it to someone - or something - if you want! Just add our YM! radiommu@yahoo.com or visit the website. It's a time for you guys to chill out in the afternoon and enjoy a cup of te-o-ais. Hehehe. Afterwards, you can check out all the other shows too! Some dudes are just plain hillarious~

I've put a link in the sidebar if you want to listen.

Excuse me while I rant in Indonesian for a while.

Buat temen2 gue di Indo ato pun di mana saja, ayo dong! Kirim request lo ke gue, bales aja di comment dibawah, gue lagi pengen nambah pendengar!

Ada saran buat topic pembicaraan? Silahkan kasi ide2 kalian! Topic terunik bakal kita seleksi dan bakal kita angkat buat dibahas. Cie cie.

Ayo, dukung acara gue yak! Cup cup, muah muah!

RMMU - your ultimate multimedia tunes!

sickday

2009-02-19T19:57:00.000-08:00

Guys, I'm sick. *cough cough*

I have a fever, my throat is heavily inflamed, and my house is a pig's sty - when my personal space is a mess, that shows that I am also a mess.

I skip all my classes - yet again - but I still don't have the strength to get up to the clinic and get an MC. Sheesh. How can they expect sick people to walk around in the heat like that? And of course, when I eventually get to the clinic, it would be because I am feeling better... so how can the doctor know I was sick??? What if he denied me an MC? What a bogus system!

Anyway, like most of my sick days, I'll try to get better by cleaning the house, it usually works - by the time my house is clean, I immediately feel healthier.

So, in my spare time at home, I like to watch youtube, due to the lack of a certain electronic called a television.

One of my favorite shows in youtube is made by College Humor and its called Jake and Amir.

Seriously, I would MARRY someone like Amir! He's just really cute, hehehehe. And stupid. And annoying in a really cute way.

You gotta check it out!

This is one of my favorite episodes:

OME - oh my Edward! Its kinda hard to understand their type of humor, but if you like American humor, this will totally crack you up - actually, I prefer british humor, but anything that is funny is alrite.

Another random video from College Humor. I love this one.

Heueheuheueheue.

Enjoy.

(still untitled)

2009-02-19T02:23:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day has come and passed, and I still haven't made a post about it! I'm planning to, since its all about my trip to Gunung Ledang, but I just haven't got the time yet, and my documentary is not complete yet... some of my chum's still hasn't uploaded the pictures that I want - the pictures of me, of course.

But there is a tale that crafted on this lovey-dovey event, the tale of my housemates.

Now, all my housemates are romantically involved with a guy, I'm pretty much the only single - and loving it! - gal at home. But I have to admit, there is a slight pang of jealousy that I felt when I discovered the gifts that they received!

Oh, the joy of gifts! I love gifts! It doesn't have to be expensive, in fact, all the best gifts that I ever got wasn't expensive at all!

And me? Well, I didn't even get a single bar of chocolate - except if you count the chocolate I got from Bang Azlan during the hike, but I'm pretty sure that has everything to do with my stomach grumbling and not because it was valentines day.

And the coolest gift that one of my housemates got was a sony mp3, and its RED! - my fav color!

Aww, goosh! Gosh, its oh-so-adorable! Me want! Me want!

I compare it with my puny and pathetic mp3 - that is slowly playing to its grave, its gonna die pretty soon - and... OMIGOSH! It has a sound recorder!!

I immediately asked premission to borrow it and did a test recording.

Hmm... what to record, what to record??

Ah, what better than one of my original songs? Hehehehe - narsistic mode: on.

So, actually, this post has got nothing to do with valentine's day. Sorry guys, I'm just not that into it - but i still accept gifts xD. This post is about a sony mp3 product test!

Yeah!

After I recorded a song, I played it, cringed everytime I sing off-key, but overall, I'm not quite satisfied with this minuscule device.

The downside of the recording is that the volume suddenly goes up and down, and it has nothing to do with how I'm singing - or maybe the mp3 tried to cover its "ears" because of my singing. And the recording is not clear. Hmm, the recording device gets 2 stars out of 5.

And heck, I went through all the trouble recording it, might as well upload it!

Story Behind It

I wrote this song on the 18th of March 2005 - woah, i was only 16 ya'll! - and I couldn't find the right chords for it. Until one day, around last month, my fellow musician, Zulramadhani helped with the chords. And voila! Four years later after it was written, it's completed! Oh, and when you listen to it, yeah, I know, I have bad pitch control, I am aware of that. I am a songwriter, NOT a singer. Hehehehhe. And I seriously need to brush up my guitar skills.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

The lyrics:

(still untitled) by Miri Amee Music by Zul Ramadhani

Little girl so jaded
You've been played, treated like a puppet
How long will you walk that broken lane
Just a minute more you'll be left insane

Little girl living in a nightmare
Can't see outside the sun is shining bright
Does you father beat you up 'til you can't speak?
And you're mother drinks a lot 'til she is weak

Life seems over, and you have nothing more
And you're about to let it all go

Chorus:
Stand up!
Stand your ground right
Don't give up!
Everything is gonna be all right
Just think tomorrow will be a better day
And stand up, you know you'll be okay
Young man you're blinded
You were cast away, your lover doesn't wanna stay
Do you really think you can keep your cool
When your lady only treats you like a tool?

Young man, trying to make amends
You come to her with flowers in your hands
Do you really think that you should make a sacrifice
For a girl that kissed another guy in front of your eyes?

Your hear is shattered, you don't wanna love again
And you're falling down on your knees

Back to chorus

Okay, that's all. What do you guys think? And most important, what do you think the title should be?

Comment!

not so louse-y afterall

2009-02-18T02:19:00.001-08:00

Well, I'm back from the clinic, and the kind, calm and collected Dr. Ali told me that..

I do not have body lice, just a common jungle bug that sticks to the skin and sucks blood.

Since I don't know the name of the bug, lets just call it the Cullen Bug. Hehehe.

And since its not body lice, its not contagious!

Whoop-tee-doo!

Well, I was fooled by Google and actually I was fit enough to go to class so in theory I wasn't entitled to get an MC (Medical Certificate).

But Dr. Ali was really kind and gave me an MC anyway, because I had sore throat.

Well, I've learned my lesson. Don't simply believe what the Internet says.

feeling louse-y

2009-02-18T00:12:00.000-08:00

Today I managed to skip all my classes because:

a). I woke up late
b). I am sleep deprived because I was catching a deadline for a job
c). I have tonsillitis, and
d). I'm infected by body lice!!

*Que the screaming* EEWWWWWW! GROSS!

I know, believe me, I know.
It's absolutely disgusting!

How did it happened? Well, as I announced a couple of days ago, I went hiking up Mount Ophir or also known as Gunung Ledang. The trip was superb, and I will be posting about my tales up the mystical mountain later, now there are more urgent news.

After the glorious 3-day trip, I went home quite cheerfully coz I managed to come home in one piece and sick-free! Well that's what I thought... at that moment.

Late night on Monday I got a YM! spam from a fellow hiker in Melaka saying that,

"To those who went up Mount Ledang beware of red spots with a black dot in the middle. Once you see it, pluck the black part out because its a highly dangerous 'KUTU HUTAN' ".

When I read it I thought, "What the HELL is a KUTU HUTAN?"

I tried google-ing it. Didn't work.

Oh, well, I was feeling A-OK until on Tuesday I discovered red, scab-like marks on my body as I took a shower, and when you press it, it hurts! But I remained insuspicious and carried on with my shower, then went to class.

In a middle of the lecture, I suddenly remembered the spam message I got the other night. Then, without warning, I plucked the black part of the red spot - its like picking a scab - and, oh boy. What I thought was a scab, was actually A SCAB WITH FRIGGIN' LEGS!

And it walked around my finger and then...." EWWWW!!! GROSS GROSS! GERROFF OFF MEEEE~~"

*squish*

...then the bug died.

So now, I decided to stay off class because I know body lice is contagious as it can jump from one body to another - a quite lame excuse to laze out in my room, actually, ehehhee.

Today, as soon as i got up, I cleaned my room, got rid of everything related to my hiking trip, washed all my clothes, and took a long, long, long shower - the ones that makes your skin wrinkle. I scrubbed like mad and re-scrubbed, then re-scrubbed again.

I want to be rid of this hideous and embarrassing illness!!!

Silly old me, I still post it up here, annoucing it to the cyberworld albeit the embarrassment that I suffer for not having a cool disease!

Its friggin' body lice! Jeez!

What does that say about me? Does this mean I'm a slob?

Well, anyways, since the rain has died down, now I can proceed to the campus and try to get an MC and medication for my BODY LICE infection.

Sheesh.

Btw, wonder how this lice looks like?

Gross! Eventhough it sucks blood like Lovely Edward Cullen, but still... EWWW!

I hope i get well soon T.T

cigarette

2009-02-15T21:28:00.000-08:00

I was Tagged by Aggie!

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

*Added by Miri: I also added parts of the lyrics of the song to actually answer the question, its kinda funny how some are spot on! Just imagine me saying these lyrics when you ask the question xP

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY', YOU SAY?
Get Up - Ciara ft. Chamillionaire [hahahaha, get up yo!]

Ooh! uh
The way you look at me
I'm feelin' you, uh
I just can't help it
Tryin' to keep it cool, uh
I can feel it in the beat, uh
When you do those things to me, uh
Don't let nothin' stop you
M-ooo-ve, ring the alarm
The club is jumpin' now
So get up!

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
I Think I'm Ready - Katy Perry [woah! Spot on!]

I'm used to opening my own doors and splitting the checks
He introduced me, was always just a friend
I bought a new dress, he never noticed
Always falling for these bad boys, such a challenge
I'm getting tired, of cleaning up after them
I think I'm ready to be a woman

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
D'inspirations - RAN [awwww~]

And I hate to admit it, but I'm so in love with you
Well it's not secret anymore, I can't keep it anymore
And I hate to admit it, but I'm so in love with you
Well it's not secret anymore, I'm addicted to your love

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Breakthrough - Nidji [oh yeaaahh!! *singing* "Now its time for revelation!"]

We used to think when we are younger
Living the lies behind the wall
Then she ask me what i'm thinking
And i said oh nothing at all
We're not a vintage generation
It's time to leave and break the wall
Then she ask me what i�m doing
So i said now its time for revolution
No no no..
You dont know me any more
Low low low..
You're gonna lower yourself
And take us higher

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Firasat - Marcell [woah, so gloomy]

ku percaya alam pun berbahasa
ada makna di balik semua pertanda
firasat ini rasa rindukah atau kah hanya bayang
aku tak peduli, ku terus berlari

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
A beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz [woah, cool!]

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man then lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needed, humble but you're greeted
And based on your body language and shotty cursive I've been reading
You're style is quite selective though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Politik - Coldplay [woah]

Look at earth from outer space,
Everyone must find their place,
Give me time and give me space,
Give me real don't give me fake,
Give me strength and self control,
Give me heart and give me soul,
Give me time give us a kiss,
Tell me your own politik.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hung Up - Madonna [WTF??? Really mum?]

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Berdua Lagi - Jikustik [OME - oh my Edward! Spot on!]

Berdua lagi
Coba leburkan
Bedanya hati
Yang kian berjurang
Takkan terjadi
Bila t'lah beku
Berdua lagi coba hilangkan
Emosi kita yang menghanyutkan
Tak mudah untuk
Membuatnya utuh
Akankah cukup
Hanya merenungi
Hilangnya hari
Dalam menunggu
Lenyap rasa sepi

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park [woah, no need to be so testy, its just a question, geez.]

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sewaktu kau Disisiku - Baim :)

andai tak kulakukan
kesalahan yang pernah terjadi
ku akan tetap jadi milikmu

menyakitkan kau tinggalkan aku
kembalilah ku akan berubah

setiap hari kau selalu ada di hati
tuk penuhi kepalaku
untuk kembali padamu

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Setia - Jikustik [hmmm, ironic. What a sad life I have...]

Deras hujan yang turun
Mengingatkanku pada dirimu
Aku masih disini untuk setia

Selang waktu berganti
Aku tak tahu engkau dimana
Tapi aku mencoba untuk setia

Sesaat malam datang
Menjemput kesendirianku
Dan bila pagi datang
Kutahu kau tak disampingku
Aku masih disini untuk setia

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy - Fall Out Boy

Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Jalanku tak Panjang - Ari Lasso [Waah!]

Semoga..
Aku masih bisa melewatkan masa separo putaran Bumi
Jalanku tak panjang.. Mungkin untuk bisa menuai waktu
Bersama dirimu..

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Broken Hearts Parade - Good Charlotte [Bahahahahaha! What a wedding~!]

Broken hearts parade
And I'm putting my heart out on display
There's no... masquerade
Just a funeral march for love today
The band strikes up and they're playing a song
Dressed in black and we're singing along to the...
Broken hearts parade
I've never been better than I am today

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Time Isn't Healing - Feltbeats (Tom Felton)

And tick tock, goes the clock
Time is going so slow
And I'm supposed to be fast asleep
A couple hours ago

So I, I need to exercise
Alright, I've got to rest these eyes
And I, I need to knock on some doors
When I won't have to lie here by myself anymore

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Pasangan Yang Tepat - Marshanda [watdehel???!?! Not really explaining my hobbies, tho]

ku tahu ku cinta kau sebelum bertemu
kau pasangan yang tepat hari ini dan seterusnya
ku tahu ku cinta kau sebelum bertemu
kau pasangan yang tepat untukku

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Delayed Devotion - Duffy [scary!]

But your words come much too late
My love for you has turned to hate
'Cause you've taken too much time
To show me that you're mine

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
A Rush of Blood to the Head - Coldplay

honey
All the movements you're starting to make
See me crumble and fall on my face
And I know the mistakes that I made
See it all disappear without a trace
And they call as they beckon you on
They said start as you mean to go on
Start as you mean to go on

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Seventeen Candles - The Pink Spiders [hehehe]

Every day’s a distraction
All the animals just looking for action
And Emily’s free-styling rhymes
Smoking in the girl’s room to kill some time
Cause all they want is a girl who
Parties hard and doesn’t bother to argue
And nobody’s worse for the wear
Everybody’s cool with the “I don’t care”

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Aku Bukan Pilihan Hatimu - Ungu [uuuuhh....???]

Karena ku yakin cinta dalam hatiku
Hanya milikmu sampai akhir hidupku
Karena ku yakin disetiap hembus nafasku
Hanya dirimu satu yang slalu ku rindu

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Cigarette - Yellowcard [nice!]

I tag:

Whoever wants to do this tag! [since most of my fellow bloggers have done this one already, ehehhee]

off to Ledang

2009-02-12T05:37:00.000-08:00

I'm going to Gunung Ledang today!
Hurrah, hurraahh!

I'm so happy, I haven't been hiking for such a long time. I'm leaving in half an hour, and I still haven't taken a shower - hey, that rhymes!

It will be a 3-day trip. I have no idea how we're gonna hike, but I heard we're gonna hike at night *gasp*!

That would be my first time.

Oh, the joy of reuniting with nature!

Okay, I'm off to shower. Wish me luck and pray that I come home safely!

ciao

new look!

2009-02-11T09:35:00.000-08:00

Finally!

I'm done with my blog-makeover!

Fiuh, I'm really sleepy right now. There are still some other things I wanna add, but I can't figure out how to do it yet... so I'll leave it for tomorrow.

The design is from suckmylolly.com, header is designed by me - that explains the crappy-ness of it - and photographed by my evil twin, aldhy.

Okay, I'll start posting again tomorrow.

Its sleep time! Hurrahh!

How do you guys like my blogs new look?? Comment!

undergoing housekeeping

2009-02-08T21:15:00.000-08:00

My blog is undergoing housekeeping. I'm changing everything, and I'm also taking new pictures for the new layout. So no new posts will be coming out, but only for a while.

I'm stuck doing a lot of work that I've been putting off. Yes, I'm procrastinating, yet again! I really do hope that I can be cured from this bad habit someday.

So, time to be a little bit more responsible and do my work!

Ta-ta!

onions, unicorns, and saturn

2009-02-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

I am reading all the posts in twilightguy.com, and I can't stop. I have a morning class tomorrow and I'm sleep-deprived, thanks to my ingenious idea to drink strong tea before bed is a good idea.

But I still can't stop!

Anyway, I'm almost done with all his posts about the first book, then I'm really gonna sleep. I will. I MUST.

So, I'm just here to post this HILARIOUS thing that my roomie said. She's is the most wonderful, funny person I've come to know here in Cyberjaya.

We were preparing dinner - well, I was watching my housemates preparing dinner - and Rara was peeling the skin of an onion. The onion, which was kept in the fridge for God knows how long, has sprouts coming out of the top, and this inspired the following conversation.

Rara : Hey, look at this! It looks like saturn! *points at the sprouts coming from the top of the onion*
Me: Saturn?
Rara: Yeah, saturn. Eh, I mean, you know, the magical horse that has a horn. *gestures a horn with her hand on her forehead*
Me: *silent for a moment* You mean... unicorn?
Rara: Yes! That's it! A unicorn!

At that point, I simply and quite literally LOL-ed! Omigosh, I LOVE this person!

First, she mistakens a unicorn with saturn, second, she compares that onion sprout to a unicorn's horn. She is so imaginative. Brilliant!

Anyway, I'm off sleeping now. Ta-ta.

its about time i mention them

2009-02-03T00:08:00.000-08:00

One of my new habits since the discovery of Twilight is checking for Twilight news on any gossip website, anywhere! Especially those websites specially made for Twilighters.

But there is one online mag that I have subscribed to for quite a while and is always up-to-date. The speed of the updates to gossip and news all over the world is so rapid, it's amazing! It truly lives up to their tag line, "It's Faster Than Mail", coz it really is faster than mail!

Yup, I'm talking about I.Are.Talk and its got everything that I need! A dose of I.Are.Talk every morning and I'm always updated with whats happening in Hollywood, what is the latest fashion, what movies to anticipate, what music to watch, what cool new artsy stuff is out there - its like a delicious meal for all those gossip-ravenous people out in the world, like me. Hehehe.

And I made a personal vow, that if I.Are.Talk posted new reports about anything related to Twilight, I would link them on my homepage. So there you go! You guys can start checking it out by clicking the link on the sidebar. It's simply superb!

Plus, I kinda know a few of the authors, who are my fabulous friends that I've come to know and love from MMU's DJ Club. I've missed you guys!

Okay, I'm really sleepy right now because I barely slept a wink last nigh-...um, i mean this morning, hehehe. I made a huge mistake of drinking a strong cup of tea before going to bed. I don't respond well to caffeine. Well, actually, I think I respond a little TOO well to caffeine - it kept me awake all dawn!

So I'm napping for a while. *stiffle a yawn*

ciao

"Breaking Dawn"

2009-02-02T11:38:00.000-08:00

I'm back in Cyberjaya!

Actually, I've been back since Friday, but I was just too lazy to update, and I'm breaking my promise on posting events that happened in Indonesia because i left the pictures on my dad's laptop.

Tomorrow - well, TODAY, actually. It's 3.38 a.m already - is the first day of class. Why on Tuesday? Well, it's because I have no classes on Monday. Whoop-tee-do!

I'm excited about it and terrified at the same time. And to top it all up, the first class is Financial Accounting Reporting II - the most dreaded subject of this semester.

Wish me luck guys *kneels and pray*.

Okay, on to other things. I was totally wrong. I'm not over Twilight yet. My enthusiasm was simply suppressed during the holidays because I had no one to share the excitement and anticipation of New Moon with. Not to mention the constant crooning of Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson. It's gotten so bad, that everything in my life, everything I see can somehow be connected to Twilight!

And it's getting harder to differentiate Robert Pattinson and Edward Cullen, because they've seem to mash together and become one person! Now my roomate, Rara, and I are having major slip ups by calling him as "Edward Pattinson" or "Robert Cullen" - its maddening!

Do you guys notice how I seem to write with better grammar and spelling?

Well, it's all thanks to Kaleb Nation and his very entertaining website, The Twilight Guy. Guys, you really should check it out. He's the same age as me, but he's accomplished so much, I'm jealous and impressed at the same time!

Because he pointed out that it was quite annoying to write in bad spelling and grammar, I decided to brush up mine. He's an English major, fyi.

Not that I can't write proper English - a skill that MANY people seem to lack here in MMU, it's shocking! How did you guys manage to pass the English test? - but I just speed-write in my blogs, so I don't really pay attention to what I write and how I write it. Until now, that is.

I mean, we should preserve the use of good English and not get caught up in all those abbreviations and jargon's that young people use these days. Don't let our English depreciate! I mean, that is SMS language, in blogging, proper English is much easier to understand.

So thank you Kaleb Nation for inspiring me to write properly! :D

To show my appreciation, I've added his link on the sidebar and I've voted him as one of the best Twilight websites. If you're a Twilighter, you definitely have to visit his site and his YouTube channel. I mean, that kid's got talent!

Plus, if you have time, go check out his upcoming book "Bran Hambric: The Farfield Curse" at this website. See Kaleb, I'm promoting you!

See the impact of Twilight? Stephanie Meyer has created an epic chain reaction to people around the world. People are so affected by Twilight, it has inspired bands to write songs about it - check out Mitch Hansen Band and The Bella Cullen Project - it inspired people to create websites, merchandises and new friendships around the world.

Literally, around the world, because not only has it affected America, but Indonesia as well, which is like a gazillion miles away from where Stephanie lives, plus the book is translated to Indonesian in the quickest record - faster than Harry Potter!

Twilight also brought me back to life from my 'zombie-like' state last semester. Now I have something to look forward to. Now I'm inspired to be better, to accomplish something.

Dawn is approaching my unmotivated life and I'm welcoming it with wide, open arms.

New semester with five tough, boring and mind-boggling accounting subjects?
Bring it on!

i'm still alive, folks

2009-01-23T15:45:00.000-08:00

Ola guys!

Okay, i've been hiatus for a while coz i went to Bandung, whoohoo!
I just got back yesterday night.

Now, since my grandma and auntie from Pontianak came to visit my family in Jakarta, we all decided to go to Taman Safari today!

I woke up at the crack of dawn, and im supposed to be taking a shower now, but, hehehhee, i just need to go online first coz results are out!

And shockingly, with my really really bad effort in studying last sem, i managed to scrape a GPA of 3.52!!!

No intention to brag. I'm just simply2 amazed.

Wow, all that time i shud've been studying, but i was reading the Twilight saga instead. Maybe Edward makes my mind sharper. Hmmm..

Ooh, by the way, im almost done with the Edward craze, but now im fanatic about Taylor Lautner [the guy who plays Jacob Black in Twilight]!

omg, allow me to be a simple girl with hormones and say, "Daaamn, he's HAAAAAWWWTT!! Ayaayayayayayyaa~"

Hahahaha.

Dats all for now, i'll post up some of my activities in Indonesia later.

ciao ya'll.

edward.robert.edward

2009-01-12T21:05:00.000-08:00

In the comfort of home, i still cant seem to relax. I feel anxious, i feel incomplete. I realized after a while, this is how Bella felt when Edward went missing for a couple of days.

If you guys are wondering, the "Edward" and "Bella" who i'm talking about is indeed the hero and heroine of the phenomenal book, Twilight.

Yes, alas, i have also been sucked into the Twilight craze. I have entered the twilight zone, and i'm getting to a point where i am absolutely obsessed with Edward Cullen! - like any other normal chick with hormones do.

Ah, Edward.

Single people like me should be forbidden to read the book, since we tend to set a standard that the perfect man would be Edward Cullen.

I refuse to believe that Edward is fiction! No! Nooooooo!!

Isn't he yummy?

I think Robert Pattinson did justice to Edward's character in the movie. He is just so so so so hot, looking at him is making me stupid.

Aaah, Edwaaaaarrd!!

I'm so obsessed with Edward/Robert that the only song i play in my mp3 is Robert's song, Never Think - where you can hear it from the sidebar - which is also a Twilight Soundtrack.

I watch all his interviews in YouTube.

I buy every magazine that has him in it, eventhough its only a tiny2 picture of him.

I browse Google and Yahoo! everyday to look for new pictures of him.

I become a frequent visitor of robertpattinson.org and bellaandedward.net.

Huffff...
Now he's done it.
I'm going to be stuck being single now.
Shoot.
Damn you Edward Cullen!!

Because of him i adopted the messy-i-don't-wash-my-hair hairdo, and now i think dandruff is cool - i kno, gross. Ahh, but love is illogical sometimes.

Because of him, my music is now influenced by the blues.

Because of him, now i'm revisiting my days in London where my accent was quite Brittish back then.

Because of him, now i say "brilliant" instead of "cool".

Because of him, every night when i sleep, i look at my open window and hope that he will come and visit - but not here in Jakarta, since i used AC all nite.

Sigh.

Edward.

Sigh.

why am i not excited to come home?

2009-01-11T19:13:00.000-08:00

I'm coming home.

I should be happy and jumping with joy rite now, but i've barely even finished packing yet. As if i don't want to prepare coming home.

I'm just so drained, all the life force in me evaporated since new years. I'm burnt.

I hope meeting my family can put back some life in me again.

I'm expecting some projects during my holiday, all the work i have to prepare.

The ISS drama.
Maybe i'm gonna learn how to use the sewing machine - i'm planning on improving my skills on manipulating a boring old t-shirt.
I'm planning on exercising a lot, to increase my metabolism, so at least i can feel my heart beating.
I'm planning on getting a new haircut, and having a day at the spa for some good ol' pampering.
I'm planning on meeting some friends who i love and miss, but not badly enuf to go to the airport rite now, just so i can be a few inches closer to home.

I'm planning on healing.

I dunno what i have to heal, but there must be something wrong with me.

Huff, i'm just so mellow.

So see ya guys, i'm not sure if i can log on much in jakarta, but i'll try.

I wish edward cullen appeared in front of my eyes, then maybe i can get a little excited - or too excited - about life again.

Wish me a safe flight!

I'm having dinner in Jakarta tonight.

ciao

it happened a year ago

2009-01-10T11:58:00.000-08:00

So, finals are over. yay!

I had an idea to write about the blissful feeling of realizing that exams are finished, but today im just so stoned and mellow. What happens when i get mellow?

I take the guitar and sing.

Then i decided to record one of my old songs, it was written on 26/01/08, almost a year ago.

Story behind it

Sitting by my window, alone. Thinking of decisions i have to make. As a daughter and as a.. a... - do i hav to say it? - lover. ew ew.

Long story short, i had to make a decision of staying with my boyfriend and disappoint my parents, or stop being such a selfish child and break-up. I chose to quit being a selfish child, coz my parents are the most wonderful parents dat don't deserve to be disappointed.

Listening to the crickets while absent-mindedly playing melodies on my guitar, thinking of heartbreaks that i will be facing, i wanted to calm myself. So i started to say, "i'll be fine, i'll be fine," like a silly old chant.

And then it morphed into a song.

Click here to listen.

The lyrics:

Someday by Miri Amee (an original song)

Chain-smoking to the sounds of crickets in the night
Its so calm yet so disturbing in my mind
I don't know why i'm feeling so tragic
I guess it's my fault for being a romantic

And corners of my bedroom remind me of you
I realize it's gonna be hard to get over you
I'm a wreck now but don't worry

Chorus:
I'll be fine, i'll be fine although i'm crying now
It's alright, i'll stand and fight and wipe my tears away
I'll be fine, i'll be okay although i'm dying now
It's a phase, i know i'll smile again someday
Someday

So i looked outside to find the sun is hiding
Don't know how long i've been blanketed by the shadow
Though i'm starting to find my life among the clutter
But all this heartache is just leaving me mellow

Yeah, so dats pretty much it. I dunno why i'm uploading this song, or even recording it in the first place. I guess i realize that some of my friends are going through the same things, aren't we buddies?

So i guess this song is dedicated to you guys.
You'll be fine, don't worry.

Lets just pray i can find a proper vocalist to sing my songs next time, eheuehueheue. No need to point out how off-key i sing, I KNOW. I have ears. It's kinda hard to find someone to sing at this unGodly hour. Just try to relate to it, kay??

I want comments!
Hueheuehue.

And okay, i decided to put the link to the song "love like ours" back. Sheesh. I took it away coz my friend said i sound drunk. I was gonna totally say, "Nooo, i do not sound drunk!"

But then i listened again. Yeah, my voice DID sound too pitchy and the words were slurry. I guess i was drunk. Hueheue, anyway, you guys can go here, or go back to the previous post to get linked to the song. Enjoy - at the expense of my shame.

the fruits of stress

2009-01-08T10:24:00.000-08:00

So i should be studying for my FINAL final exam, but instead i started the day, waking early and dashing to the monitor to resume reading one of the Twilight books, Eclipse.

Which is totally un-putdown-able.

Not recommended for those who has some other important stuff to do, like, uh, studying maybe?

Anyway, now its 3am, and my test starts at 9am. I'm wide awake - thanks to a puny can of caffein - and i haven't even started studying yet!

This is a recipe for disaster.

But i still remain productive, because i managed to write a song! In one hour, and immediately recorded.

Hope you like it. Its very rough.

*after 30 minutes*

Shoot! Why cant i upload it here?? Anyone know what i did wrong?

Anyway, feel free to listen it from this link.

*after being slightly sober, i decided to disable this link. its just too embarrassing, sorry. hehehe. [Added at 8.20am]

** okay, fine! i put the link back, eheuehuee. i hope you guys aren't disappointed :P [aded sunday 4.50 a.m]

This song is inspired by the influence of Twilight stories and - unfortunately - my pitiful love experience.

Its about love that used to be a part of you, but now its just dead. Leaving a gaping hole.

The lyrics:

Love like ours by Miri Amee (an original song)

If it was a house
It'll be made out of stone
But covered in moss
Like the memories we lost

And the weather
Will crumble the walls
And sooner or later
It'll all be gone

'Coz a love like ours
Now empty and abandoned
Can only withhold for so long
And a love like ours
Can be beautiful if reserved
Too bad it was never taken care of

If it was a tree
No branches and leaves
No blooming flowers
Not even green

And no birds will nest and sing
And thunder will clash
And burn it to ash

Coz a love like ours
That used to be natural
Now feels so distant and unfamiliar
And a love like ours
That used to be graceful
Too bad now we're eager
To erase it all

Be easy on the comments okay, hehehe. Coz i recorded it on a half-stoned state, and in a room where my dear roomie, Rara, was sleeping like a rock.

I think i choked somewhere in the song. Hehehehhe.

But please comment!

Tell me, can you relate?

xerox-phobia

2009-01-03T04:13:00.000-08:00

The most recent adventure that i had was the quest to photocopy materials for finals. I kno, finals are at monday, and i just started preparing now? Well, better late than never.

Anyway, i woke up at 1pm, but i manage to put off studying until 6pm. What a waste of time. I just sat and ate and watched a movie and bathed and opened youtube and watch Britney's new video, Circus - which i totally love the song, btw.

So, i went out of the house at 6pm-ish, and walked to campus to get a book that i was gonna copy. The copy shop at Cyberia was closed, so i figured i can go to the one at hostel.

The hostel copy shop was also closed.

I was just about to give up, when i met my friend Meme & Ida - they're and item - and they were really nice enuf to take me to Street Mall.

Arrived at Street Mall, both copy shops were closed. Went accross to 7eleven, and this is where the funny thing happened.

There were two shops next to each other, one is 7eleven, one is a non-descript mini market which the name i couldn't read. So i went to the non-descript one.

Me: "Bang, nak photostat."
Abang: "Mesin rosak, dek."

Bummer, the machine is dead. So i went to 7eleven.

Me: "Bang, boleh photostat tak?"
Abang: "Boleh2."

Chaching! Hurrah! I'm saved!

Abang: "Tapi paper habis dek."

OMG, can u believe my luck???? So i asked if i could buy one rim of paper and then he copies it on his machine, but he said:

Abang: "Boleh lah dek, tapi selembar tetap 20 sen. Double-side 40 sen."
Me: "&#^@%#^#!!!!!!"

I was gonna copy a book, so how much wud dat cost??? Plus i had to provide the paper myslef, which costs RM10!! Uurrghhh. I totally ditto-ed dat shop.

Okay, so i still havn't copied anything, i havn't prepared for anything, my finals start on Monday, ends at Friday.

Dear God, help me.

Motivation, where art thou??

choices and consequencess

2009-01-02T03:31:00.000-08:00

What am i doing here?

In between the hectic "cram" study that i do during study week, there is always a moment where i just lose it.

What the hell am i reading? What is all this crap? Why did i take accounting in the first place? Because of my parents? Because it is an in-demand skill? Or is it because there is a bigger opportunity to get as much money as i can??

Well, yes, I AM doing this for the money, but it doesn't mean that i love it!

Do i want to be an accountant? The answer: NO.

Or do i?

I can't imagine myself in the real world, taking care of other ppl's accounts - i do my own accounts actually, keeping track of all my spending and all. I kno, its sick.

Do i want to do that corporate climbing thing?? Uh, i'm not sure if i can endure it! I'm not exactly that ambitious.

I kept going over my dreams in high school. Back then, i really didn't want to enroll to any major that has business or management in it.

My father gave me freedom, but he kinda did push me into this direction, being a bank manager himself.

I remember my mother's reaction when i said wanted to be a teacher. Not so good.

I remember the chance i didn't take when i could've studied physics instead. I was already accepted in a good government university in Bandung, but instead, i came to Malaysia and studied Accounting, the most boring major i can imagine.

Initially i wanted to take engineering, but i switched to management. Initially i wanted to take Human Resource Management but i took Accounting instead. See how far i strayed from the path of my dreams??

I remember a talk i had with my father in my favorite Japanese restaurant in Bandung. I told him that if i don't become a teacher, i want to be a microbiologist and study about the environment. I want to become a scientist like the cool ones you see in movies like Independence Day or Day After Tomorrow - notice how the smart people mostly ends up to be the one who survives?

But my father said something, "Do you want to be the scientist who takes orders and work in laboratories or do you want to be the rich entrepreneur who has the power to make change? Do you want to do the change or have the power to make it happen?"

Money brings power.

I chose money. Thus, i chose accounting.

The consequences? I don't love what i do. And especially during exam times like this, i always reach a point where i practically scream:

What am i doing here??

will it make a difference?

2008-12-31T22:43:00.000-08:00

Welcome, year 2009!

How was ur new year's celebration last nite?

Mine was pretty uneventful, but pleasant. I did the countdown at my friend's house, Angga a.k.a Ancuk [Angga Jancuk, hehehhee, pis ngga :P]. Then we watched Pirates of the Caribbean 2, where halfway during the beginning of the film, i fell asleep.

My 1st January 2009 started with a pile of daily chores and still, a sore red, lobster-ish face. After i had lunch, did the dishes and my ironing, i figured that my life in year 2009 shud be more meaningful, so i did sumthin completely random.

While i still havn't figured out what my new year's resolutions will be, i do kno a small part of it will be increasing my contribution in saving the planet.

Incidently, the first movie i saw in 2009 - besides Pirates of the Carribean, but dat doesnt count since i slept thru it - was The Day After Tomorrow.

So, that movie further inspired me to add another link on my blog, which is from the rainforestsite.com. One click a day can be a help in the protection of rainforests everywhere, and the best part about it is.. its completely FREE! All we do is click, and someone else spends their money, hehehe.

I come from Indonesia where rainforests are pretty important. My father is from Pontianak - no, not the scary Malaysian baby-eating poltergiest - which is in Borneo, an island that is vastly covered in rainforests so thick that u can hardly see the sky above you. My father influenced me to love nature, and i do.

When i was young, i flew to Borneo to visit my Grandma, and i loved to see from the airplane window how green that island was. But my latest visit to Borneo in 2007, i saw that it wasn't as green as it used to be.

Lots of forests were burnt down to make room for farming, or grazing, or harvesting wood to be illegally sold. It was very sad to watch brown patches in a beautiful carpet of green.

So help me guys, click that tiny button dat says "click everyday" and maybe somewhere around the world, we help to conserve another rainforest and all those wonderful creatures that call it their home.

Will it make a difference? I don't kno. All we can do is try - it's still better than doing nothing.

overrated festive holiday, why must we celebrate?

2008-12-30T23:31:00.000-08:00

New year is dawning and im at the lowest of low this year. But nevermind, how can you be let down in one of the most festive times of the year?

Im still itching and stinging like mad, i dunno how to make it go awaaayy~

anybody knows how to beat sunburn-like allergy reactions? Urggghhh, i cant even wash my face, it buuurrnnnsss~~~

So, i had wild and crazy plans to go out dis new year. A friend of mine suggested going to a certain club, which actually, i'm not so comfortable to do, but i guess i wanted to do just for a whim.

Another suggested ice-skating at sunway which sounded like a "weeeee~" experience.

Another suggested getting broke and finishing the last hours of 2008 shopping at the Mega Sale in KLCC, which totally temps me, since i just got my allowance, whoohoo!

But, alas, eventhough i soo want my new year's to be an exiting, unforgettable experience, i chose to spend it at home, with the people i care most.

My family in cyberjaya.

Since one of my friends is facing a slight problem in his/her life, it just doesn't seem fair to go out and hav fun while he/she sits at home, possibly in despair, is it?

Besides, who can go out with a face like THIS??

Okay, maybe not as dramatic as this, but u get d point, rite?

I guess im just gonna stay at home, cuddle with my e-commerce book and try to cram up those bits of information which i hopefully can remember with the help of gingko biloba *power up your memory!*

Till then peeps!

I'll see ya'll in 2009!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

a not-so-happy beginning

2008-12-30T23:25:00.001-08:00

So i decided to move my blog from friendster to here. For no reason, just want to refresh and start a "new book". I haven't deleted it, just abandoned it. You can check it out here.

Today is a mellow day. Why? Well...

My face is burning and itching [bad case of allergy].
I don't kno wat to do yet on new year's, becoz i don't feel like going anywhere with this stinging face.
Finals r drawing near, and i'm nowhere near any books yet.
I found out dat i gained weight [!!!!!!!!!]
I have no motivation whatsoever to improve myself and i'm feeling quite useless.

On a happier note, i could log into PetSociety today! Whoohooo!
I still haven't found anything interesting to post yet, so uninspired.

I think dis song pretty much describes how im feeling.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

i feel so alone.